Remember how I LOVE music? Well, here is a song that right now I sing so loud when it comes on the radio! I listen to this during the day...and it's so cute...my babies in my classroom are starting to learn the words. So as I am working around the room...I hear a few of them singing as they work too!
Today's song is by:
Meredith AndrewsCan Anyone Hear Me 
I'm staring at these empty wallsWondering if You'll come and visit me againWhen will You come?If there is anything at allComing in between our lovePlease show me, 'cuz I am barely hanging onCan anybody hear me?The silence is deafeningWhy do You feel so far away?When I know You're here with meBut I just need faith to seeNothing can separate me from Your loveBelieving what I can't see Has never come naturally to meAnd I've got questionsBut I am certain of a LoveStrong enough to hold me when I'm doubtingYou'll never let go of my handChorusI will trust in You, even in the momentsI can't find you, and I will hold on toYour promises of loveYou've never failed beforeI know You can hear meWhen the silence is deafeningEven though You see far awayAnd I know You're here with meBut I just need faith to seeNothing can separate me from Your loveI love this song! I know I keep saying this over and over again...but in the past few months I have learned SO MUCH! It's just crazy to me of how...the Lord can pick you out of your "normalcy" of a world and show you things. And now I am sitting here looking in, watching and learning from all those things going on and people in it.
Someone once said to me, "Where's your fight, Tiffany?" When I heard this...I thought about this song. Where's my fight?! Really...Can ANYONE hear me! I remember thinking
What about me and the things I AM going through?!?!...I am screaming for help and for a fight! I remember feeling like people were so worried about things other than what was going on with me and my heart. I know at some point everyone has felt like that before...I was just talking to Renee Cross
(Clay Cross wife; the Christian singer) about this last weekend. When you feel like someone who you thought cared about you just ran over you to get to someone else. And then you moved to the place of a project and not a person. That feeling really is hard to be in.
When I felt that I was being run over by people and asking myself what about me; it really hurt my heart to be there. But now I ask myself...What about me? I think about the prayers I prayed for these people that ran over me...prayed for their life to be changed and somehow if I needed to be used my the Lord then for Him to then use me. And I know with Chris and I...and the ways we have grown...I know some have thought..."I'm so glad I'm not there"...but I know in the same breath they have grown with seeing us go through the things we have. Why do people say or think that by the way..."glad I'm not in their shoes." I know people don't want to go through hard things...but geeezzzz...for me to have a true and deep relationship with the Lord and my husband like I do now...I wouldn't change
ANYTHING from these past few months. Whose to say anything was not right and not in God's plan or timing?...No one.
This song was and still is a good song that I love to sing so loud! I sang it a different way a few months ago though...I sang it...screaming for someone to hear me...but now I don't need anyone to hear me. Because I know the things we have gone through are working for the Lord, I'm already hearing stories. And isn't that what I have been praying for...that somehow the Lord will use Chris and I...and our story to help others?!
So this is and has always been my fight...for the Lord...even though sometimes I couldn't see it...or others couldn't...I knew He was there...and could...nope...that He CAN hear me!